Friday, May 22, 2020

Nine Years Ago

Today I am stuck in the past.  It was nine years ago today that Billy and I first met.  An unplanned coincidence brought me into the Penthouse Club in the afternoon.  She was a dancer that only worked day shift. It was the Friday before Memorial weekend.  She was so young and pretty.   In a perfect world we would never of met, never loved each other and never left permanent traces of ourselves on each other.  I am at a loss of words to describe those nine years, but they changed me.

I found this in my achieves.  I wrote it just before I ended my last blog.  It was about the time Billy and I started living together.

Don't Look for Normal (Partial)
Originally Posted- Thursday, January 30, 2014

Shit I don't know anymore.  What is normal? 

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood
I was thrown down the one less traveled,
Like an infant down a well
Frightened, and lost I struggled to find my return
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
The years pass, the leaves grow well trodden by my passing
I was thrown down the road less traveled, by
And that has made all the difference.

Inspired by Robert Frost's The Road Not Taken

I was a married father with three children, big house, three cars and a six figure job.  I wasn't happy and I didn't really know what people were all about.  Ten years have passed since my divorce,I make less money, both my best friend and my girlfriend are strippers... still think I am better off.

10 comments:

  1. that Robert Frost poem STILL makes me cry...

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    1. We never know which way the road will take us. We can never predict the our path.

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  2. Love that Frost poem.

    You might be right. We are taught from an early age what is supposed to make us happy by people who were probably not nearly as happy as they wanted to be.

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    1. That is so true. They lead by example down a path that leaves little room for deviation. When we loose our way that is the start of the adventure.

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  3. What is happiness, BW? Tell me your version...

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  4. If we ever learn anything in life, it's that things constantly change and we have to change with them.

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    1. Mary you are correct. I tended to go through change kicking and screaming before I relent.

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  5. I know you are better off, without knowing you personally.... I know from your writings the your thought process, take into the human element.... Which is Life itself.

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    1. It was time. It doesn't mean it is easy. Going backward and going forward both look undesirable.

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