Fighting to live is ingrained in my father’s generation. He is not ready to die. I still cannot understand his motives. My father is back in the hospital. They are saying even if they stabilize him in the hospital he will crash as soon as he leaves and he will be right back inside. I am trying to make him understand this. He is weak and being closely monitored in intensive care. He did not bounce back to any extent from his last hospital stay just a week ago. Getting out of bed, staying warm and eating are all an issue. His heart is working at 15%. The hospital is subtlety suggesting hospice care. I am hoping to get him to agree to palliative care that can transition into hospice
The things that make life worth living in my book have all been taken away at this point; his wife, sex, food, the internet and his dignity. He is left with only struggling to live. It is not easy to watch.
My mother was supposed to be here. She was the stronger one. But she is not. Cancer got her 6 years ago.
We live too long. All the medication these companies come up with can prolong our body’s ability to function but they do not seem to improve the quality of that longer life. We need to do that ourselves and early on through diet and exercise. I am personally going to refuse to take medications. If I cannot fix it through a change in lifestyle it won’t be fixed. When my body decides to give out, I am going to let it.
My father went back into the hospital Tuesday. The doctor said he almost died. He will die once they stop the life sustaining medications. He is in ICU but we as a family have decided to stop the medications. He is going into hospice tomorrow. The doctors are telling us he heart is very weak and he won't last long.