A Conversation

Bathwater: I had a low grade fever and scratchy throat yesterday.

Billy:  I thought you were staying put.  Where did you go?

Bathwater:  I am... mostly.

I did not bother telling her I have been banging a 22 year old who just got back from Europe.  Billy has a cold.  No fever involved.

Billy:  I just got more meds myself yesterday.  I still have a lot of mucus in my lungs.  What's your temp today?

Bathwater:  It has gone back down.  Have they talked about laying you off yet?

Billy:  No not yet.  I am really struggling though.  I cannot imagine being laid off on top of this.

Billy is struggling because she needs a constant source of income to feed her drug habit.  Any little thing can interrupt that flow and the virus is not a little thing.

Bathwater: The governor is going to announce a stay at home order for Michigan this afternoon at 11:00 a.m.

Billy: Really?  I am going to be fuck!  Last week she seemed against it.

Bathwater: Last week we only had 53 cases now it is over 1200.  You need to prepare.

Billy: How can I prepare?  I'm already struggling.

Bathwater: If you get laid off find a rehab.

Later that morning after the governors speech she texted again

Billy:  did she call it?

Bathwater:  Yes, for three weeks starting midnight tonight.

Billy:  Fuck  (and then a few minutes later)  We are still working.

Bathwater: That is unbelievable you are not essential work.

Billy: idk how.  I guess new construction is considered essential.

Bathwater:  I think it has more to do with the fact your company would go bankrupt..  New construction is not essential.

Billy:  Nah, the owner has savings.  During '08 he kept everyone working.

Bathwater:  A year ago he was shorting creditors.  You should still plan.   The reason this thing will keep spreading is because too many people will ignore the order.

Billy:  I know.  I don't know what is going to happen.  I'm screwed that is what I know.

Bathwater:  I thought the reason you left me was because you wanted to get married and have kids.  Not to live under worse conditions.  It has been six months.  It doesn't look like anything has changed... for the better.

Later yesterday Billy replied in a long series of text.  

Billy: I am doing good Bath.   I have cut back a lot.  I'm happy.  don't bring me down...that not right.  You know how much I struggle with my addiction don't throw it in my face. Makes me sad you would even say that.  I do want to have kids.  I just cannot get better over night.  I wish more than anything I could.

"Don't feel sorry for them,"  The psychic said.  "They have made their own choices."  

Home alone and sick. I wonder if they will ever pay for their choices.  She is wrong when she says she cannot get better over night.  All it takes is to stop using.  It is hard, but it can be done.  She could focus all her efforts on quitting.  Se could go to meetings.  She says she is happy.  She what she is really doing is trying to have both worlds.

Who's to know if your soul will fade at all
The one you sold to fool the world
You lost your self-esteem along the way
Yeah

Good god you're coming up with reasonsGood god you're dragging it out  Fake It, Seether