There were more dreams over the weekend. One was a conversation with Billie. I still have a hard time processing the end of that relationship. I am happy for her, but our discussions never resolve my conflicted feeling.
Lately, I am acutely aware of how much time I spend waiting for time to pass. It's like I am wasting my life away. This morning I am waiting to hear from Ava. She is supposed to spend the night tonight, but scheduling has become more problematic. Usually, when she is quiet, it is not a good sign.
Firefly had a lovely baby shower over the weekend. She says her apartment is full of baby things, but she is still worried. Firefly seems happy. Hopefully, she can keep her spirits lifted once the baby is born.
It seems these posts lately do not go in the direction of my thoughts. Mostly, because my thoughts are cloudy. I don't know about anyone else, but I am waiting to see what the future holds. Times feel uncertain. Too many things can go wrong.
Are they cloudy, or just not focused as well as you would like them to be?
ReplyDeleteGood question. Unfocused is a better way to put it. I am juggling to many things. Two months ago, I had no issues. Now, I have more than my share of issues.
DeleteWriting is supposed to help solidify thoughts, I thought. But if these posts meander where you don't expect, perhaps that's a good thing?
ReplyDeleteMaybe. Perhaps I need to spend more time fleshing them out.
ReplyDeleteI've learned you just never know what could happen in the future. Some good, some bad. I hate not knowing.
ReplyDeleteI hate not knowing too, but I think that is something we need to get comfortable with.
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