It is the day after Christmas. Twin A spent the night yesterday. This morning, I got out of the house to pick up a few supplies. When I got home, I noticed my phone had stopped working. The clerk at the phone store said it was the screen, but I had wanted a new phone anyway, so I bought a new Galaxy flip for myself. I can afford a Christmas present. It is the only one I received. Not that I was looking for gifts.
I went to have dinner with Alexis and Sam on Christmas eve. Alexis made ham and other accompaniments. I heard from Ava, my kids, and a few friends on Christmas. The only one who didn't reply was Tinkerbell. She was silent.
I stopped enjoying Christmas about the time I got divorced. Though, it has always stressed me out. The best Christmas I've had lately was when Firefly and I were on the road trip, and we did Christmas in Tucson. I did a brief search through old posts. There were no happy Christmas posts. Even when Billie and I were together, we went to Milford and spent the day with her extended family. I never enjoyed that. I felt like a fish out of water.
Here is a post from a December past.
Originally Posted Tuesday, December 15, 2009
All I want for Christmas is Miranda Kerr with a bow on her ass. I'd settle for a select few others if there are no more Mirandas on the shelf.
Presents show how well a person knows you or how much a person thinks of you. I hate getting presents. Luckily I get very few anymore, so I needn't worry much. A few years back, I was picking Max up on Christmas Eve. He came out of the ex-wife's house with a present wrapped for me. It was a few of his own toys. The poor kid felt so bad. Luckily now he gets to buy things at Santa Shop at school. What a mother.
I like giving gifts. Tinkerbell was always a fun person to buy for. She liked anything I picked out. The Twins know how to suck the joy right out of Christmas lately. We will see how THAT proceeds. I swear I've raised them wrong. They are greedy little bastards. Honestly, I'll be glad when the holidays are over, and everyone is gone. The shit just stresses me out. Besides, what's the point if Miranda Kerr isn't under the tree?
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When the kids were little, I always ensured they had something for their mother for Christmas. I didn't put much effort into it, but I ensured they picked something out.
Christmas now is time away from work. A chance to do for me and relax. That is where the joy comes from. Maybe I am bitter or just being realistic. Next year, I should plan another getaway.
Working at the evil toy store (now defunct, sort of, if you don't count the rebranding) robbed Christmas of the magic it had when I was a kid. So, I'm not terribly disappointed that I missed it this year. My dad brought over Christmas dinner today, so I didn't totally miss out.
ReplyDeleteI think we need to redefine Christmas. It doesn't need to have the trappings that society gives it.
God point too bad they are so ingrained in us as children.
DeleteChristmas is a holiday for children. I know too many adults who are really interested in what they, themselves are getting for Christmas. Let me know what you think of the flip phone. I find them fascinating.
ReplyDeleteSo far I like the phone. You have to charge it with a C to c charger though. My house is not set up for that.
DeleteI hope you like your new phone.
ReplyDeleteI like it. I am not sure it was worth the price though.
DeleteI would freakin love to spend Christmas in Tucson. I always got a kick out of the gifts the kids picked out at the Santa Shop.
ReplyDeleteYes, Firefly and I were just reminiscing about it yesterday.
DeleteI guess the best part of Christmas is watching the kids unwrap gifts.
ReplyDeleteCoffee is on and stay safe
Those days are gone. I am not sure even watching grandkids would thrill me anymore.
DeleteFunny part is Miranda still looks that good
ReplyDeleteShe is definitely something. I saw a picture of her pregnant and she still looked amazing.
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