Wednesday, I texted Bunny to cancel getting together on Friday. I didn't want to say I am not physically attracted to her. I have been seeing Firefly and she takes care of my physical needs even though Firefly will be gone for 3 months I would rather wait or find someone else than to pay for Bunny's company. I feel a bit guilty for canceling. Bunny is a pretty 22 yr old girl. Most guys would jump at the chance to be with her.
Bathwater: Hey, I am afraid I have to cancel Friday. This is just not what I want right now.
Bunny: What's up are you okay? I am curious if I did something wrong, please let me know.
Bathwater: I am fine. I think you are great. I hope we can remain friends, but I know you are looking for an arrangement and I am not sure I want that right now.
Bunny: I understand, I would love to be friends with you and still hangout and do things! I want ot do yoga with you. And that's perfectly okay! I get it!
I find it funny that these girls half my age find me interesting. You can argue that I exchange money for sex with Firefly and the Gymnast, but Bunny wants to stick around even though we will not have such an arrangement.
I remember when I first started dating Billy there was a big debate about our relationship on one of my previous blogs. One anonymous person wrote "... I think you can't attract quality women of your own age, so you go for the damaged, fragile young girls who will look up to you as a savior/sugar daddy and put up with your failings and lack which quality older women won't do."
I don't think that is true. I do end up getting involved with damaged younger girls. Those are the types that tend to get involved with older men. I relate to them. I have been through a lot myself.
For every Firefly, Gymnast or Bunny I have met this year, there have been two girls that never make the blog. Either because they don't go past the first meeting, or the fizzle out quickly. What have I gotten from regular dating sites? One date, The Hippie and she came with baggage. A 7 yr old son. I am not looking to be dealing with kids again at my age.
I think the anonymous person would be more correct if they said, I cannot find a attractive quality woman my own age. The available ones are few and far between and have their pick of men. You don't go fishing in a lake where they are not biting. You fish where you catch something.
One person's opinion, is just that opinion, no one truly knows what really our desires are except the two people who are interacting at that time.... and really its no one's business.. but yours and the other person.
ReplyDeleteBilly and I were together for over 7 years. In the end I think my age did play a part in her decision, because she wanted to get married and have a family. I am not having more kids and she knew that.
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ReplyDeleteI am very fortunate that you share with the blog world, your thoughts..
I appreciate the honesty of all of the writings
Thank Tom, I try to keep it honest but interesting.
DeleteAge tends to be irrelevant. Of course, there's at least one complainer in every crowd.
ReplyDeleteThe comment I felt came from a woman, how was looking at it from her issues and those were affecting her judgement.
ReplyDeleteI say, never judge someone else. We are all unique souls that need to make our way in the world.
ReplyDeleteThis is true. If we are not doing any harm, I say leave well enough alone.
DeleteThis is so interesting, I would love to chat with you in private... I have an arrangement as well but it doesn't seem to be quite like the ones you describe... I hope you're doing well.
ReplyDeleteI am doing good. You can email me at dashfelodese@gmail.com and we can talk more. Just warn me I don't check that one often.
Deleteyeah you're right, I love that lake-fishing analogy you used. you know what they say, you'll find your soul mate once you stop looking...
ReplyDeleteI found the one and she got away. That is as good as it will ever get.
DeleteI think part of the anon comment is correct, but just because you date or have arrangements with younger girls doesn't make anyone a "failure". Additionally, we are all imperfect and working on ourselves and our issues and that can be done at any age. Hell, it's only been the last 2.5 years that I've been seeing what all my issues are and *trying* to work on them and grow. I'm a very judgemental person, but I've definitely been in a more "who cares what other people do, not my business" type of mindset lately. If it works for you, it works for you. When you want something different, I'm sure you'll find it.
ReplyDeleteI don't think I will find something different. I don't think of myself as a failure though, I am successful and can choose who I want to be with.
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