Yesterday I cleaned the house before taking the truck to the hand-wash car wash. The temperature was in the mid-forties. The car wash needs repair. Several of the bays are blocked due to issues, and those that are open need cleaning or work. It was nice to get outside in the fresh air. The truck needed cleaning, I don't like letting it get so dirty, but I don't go many places.
Firefly asked for some money to buy a shadowbox. She is creating a memorial for a friend who died. She stayed out late. When she did return, I was already in bed. She placed a cheaper picture frame on the dresser. I asked her what happened to the rest of the money, but I already knew the answer. She spent it on crack. She would deny it, but it would be the truth.
"Don't ask me for any more money," I tell her. She knows I do not want to support her drug use.
She doesn't seem to have a plan. She has not mentioned the boyfriend in a while, and I don't ask. She did tell me he and she were using meth that weekend she wrecked her car. Along with dope, it is his drug of choice. Firefly does not usually use meth. They should work on themselves and avoid each other. Firefly doesn't seem ready to work on herself.
I think her being her is better than the streets, but I do not get much from the arrangement. Not sure how this will play out.
When you're chained to the mirror like the razor blade
Today's the day that all the world will see...Morning Glory, Oasis
Best of luck to you, Bathwater. You know your situation better than anyone else and I hope it plays out with you not getting the shaft.
ReplyDeleteIt is not about getting the shaft, she is dealing with a past that affects her present.
DeleteMe too, me too.
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