CBD

 Sunday afternoon, I received a text from Alexis, "We are ready when you are."

Alexis, Sam, and I had made plans to go to a psychic fair. I was hoping the rain would change their minds. It didn't. So, I put down my book, crawled out of bed, and to a quick shower.

I got to their house before 1:00 in the afternoon. The day was overcast at the best of times, and it drizzled rain on and off all day. We piled into the Gladiator and headed for St. Clair Shores. The psychic fair was outside of a VFW hall a few miles from the twin's house.

Alexis started drinking before I arrived at her house. She also happily admitting to taking an Adderall pill. It was going to be one of those trips. 

The fair consisted of thirty tents lined up in three rows on a patch of lawn outside of the VFW hall. Several food trucks sat on the pavement in front of the lawn. Most of the tents contained vendors selling crystals or jewelry. Five or six house various types of psychics.

Alexis and I stopped at a tent. The woman was selling various CBD products. When she saw that I was vaping, she handed me a free sample of a vape cartridge filled with CBD oil. Yes, I am still occasionally vaping, but only non-nicotine products.

The woman started espousing the differences in CBD. Alexis got bored and decided to stir the pot. She broke into the woman's monolog and asked, "Yeah, but will any of it help with his impotence issues." 

The woman was not sure how to respond. With a smirk, I rolled my eyes and shook my head, "Just ignore her."

We didn't stay long. No one from our group got a psychic reading. We went to a nearby restaurant and had lunch. Sam started drinking, and Alexis continued. I didn't. Later, when we returned to their house, we spent some time sitting in their garage and watching the rain. The drinking continued. That is another story I don't want to get into right now except to say they drink too much.

When I got home that evening, I tried the CBD vape. It had a strong weed smell to it. It didn't take many hits. I wasn't sure what it would do for me, but I didn't like the effect. CBD tends to mess with my emotions. That is part of the reason I was so down in my last post. Drugs and alcohol tend to have a strong depressive effect on me.

I am not saying I don't have thoughts of Billie or that the events with Firefly aren't stirring my head. It is just easier to handle most days. No, I don't want Billie back. That is a dead-end. I know it.  As for Firefly, she was a nice distraction when things seemed mutually beneficial for both of us, but that hasn't been the case for a while now. I am not attached to her.  I think I use her as an excuse not to find someone else. I find dating or looking for someone new difficult and time-consuming. 

For every Gymnist or Firefly, I go through at least 4 or 5 I am not interested in. Find someone with true dating possibilities or long-term relationship potential is like looking for the right needle in a needle stack.

Firefly did make it to the Rehab Tuesday. We will see how long she stays.