On the Mend

Firefly is mending.  It has been a week.  Mostly things have been fine.  She is gaining weight back.  I keep telling her she will need to start exercising now that she is getting back to a healthy weight.  We haven't been able to get her car out of impound.  It wasn't worth much anyway.  She bought it for $400.

She had a lot of good clothes in the car that they will not let her get, but she has already replaced much of them through donations from friends on Facebook.  I guess social media is good for something after all.  Overall I think her life has improved for the time being.  She has not contacted the ex-boyfriend.  She wants nothing to do with him.  She is saving for a new car.  She should have money for that in a few weeks.

She is not used to having a stable environment for more than a few weeks or a few months.   Many people like her don't at that age.  She still needs to get clean.  She needs to start surrounding herself with better people. She still wants to go back to rehab.  She wants to go to one of the fancy ones in Florida or California.  Mostly, I think she just wants to get away for a while.  I will give her my opinions, occasionally but mostly leave her alone.  It is my opinion she is not ready to get clean but she needs to try.  The drugs ruin you.  She knows this but I will bring up Billie as a cautionary tale.

I like having her around.  She reminds me of Billie at her age.  Firefly does not take advantage of the situation.  She keeps the place clean and her stuff organized.  She takes care of my needs and is nice company to cuddle up with at night.  It is a relationship of convenience that both of us seem to be comfortable with for now.  I like her but I am not consumed or in love with her the way I was with Billie.  When Firefly decides to leave, I will miss her but I will not be begging her to stay.