Currently I am taking care of my dying father. I am focusing on making him happy. He is often the reason I get out of bed each day. I still believe unseen forces align our lives. They do not determine our destiny, but the give us the things we need, if we allow them. I have positive affirmations written out on cards. These are suppose to help me reprogram my mind and help me get over this break up. The top card says, "Everything I need comes to me at the right time and place."
My co-worker would say we tend to give significance to random events in our lives. I believe there is more to it all. My friend Sam went to see a psychic last week. This is the second psychic to tell her she will be getting married again. The psychic said she would be meeting him soon. Sam does not believe it. She is twice divorced. Both guys cheated on her. Deep down I think she wants to meet someone. Don't we all?
My dad is finding it harder to swallow certain foods. I think the tumor in his throat is growing again. It is hard to tell without testing. I don't want him to die of starvation, unable to get anything passed the lump in his esophagus. Other parts of his body are failing. Any of them could be the final cause. Getting old sucks.
I have a friend at work. Her mother-in-law is dying from a disease that hardens the lungs. Her mother-in-law is in hospice and has been for over a week. My friend says it is agony watching her slowly die. It scares me. I am not ready to see this happen to my dad.
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