Tinkerbell called me last night around 6:00 pm. She told me her insurance was not covering her therapy and that she would have to stop. That is too bad. I think she was starting to get something out of it. Hopefully, she will be able to find a cheaper option. Jokingly, I told her my therapy sessions would cost less, but I would have to fit her in around my appointments with the narcissist.
Ava came over around 7:30 to spend the night. We went to Noodles & Co and ordered carryout, then stopped at Meijer to pick up cotton balls, a pear, and some gum. Everything a girl needs for a sleepover.
After eating, Ava changed from her jeans and sweater into a pair of my sweats and my turquoise tee-shirt she always wears when she is over. We curled up on the couch and watched The Luckiest Girl on Netflix. It was okay. I think it was a bit longer than it needed to be, and I feel like they wrapped it up unrealistically.
Ava and I stayed up until 2:00 am. She is dreading her upcoming thirtieth birthday in November. Ava feels like she hasn't gotten where she wants to be. I don't think she ever will. "You plan to clean your house in thirty days. It will take thirty days. If you plan on cleaning your house in three hours, and it will take three hours."
Financial security is her goal. It reminds me of another saying. If you give a man a fish, he will eat for a day. If you teach a man to fish, he will eat for a lifetime. Ava doesn't want to learn to fish. I don't prioritize financial security. I figure I can always make money one way or another.
I woke up and started working from home at 7:00 am. Ava was a bit more reluctant to get out of bed. I think there is underlying unhappiness behind it. Ava is the type of person that sets multiple alarms to wake up. I haven't set the alarm for myself in close to ten years. Still, she isn't grumpy in the morning-- at least not with me.
Ava's favorite saying is, "that's just life." I try to remind her she is in the passenger seat and not driving. She is not setting the course; she just allows it to happen. I'll admit to having been that way from time to time. We all can admit to allowing life to move us rather than taking control at some point, but Ava takes it a bit far. Mainly because she does not have anything motivating her-- just a lot of ideas and dreams.
I think we all feel that at 30--that we aren't where we expected to be.
ReplyDeleteAt thirty, I thought I was exactly where I was expected to be. I didn't find out until thirty-eight that it was all an illusion.
Deleteit's funny how one is not ready to do what it takes to have what one wishes for. I would say it's the same for me (wanting to be skinny but not committing to what's necessary to get there)
ReplyDeleteI am sure we all do a degree of it. We excel at what comes easy for us and struggle to rise to the challenges of things that take more effort.
DeleteI tell myself it is too late to get off the treadmill. Mostly because it is comfortable and I have my future retirement to think about. I would do things differently if I had the opportunity to do it all again. But then, most people say that.
ReplyDeleteI have a friend who had the same problem with her insurance, she deals with depression. Talking with someone who is knowledgeable to make suggestions helps.
ReplyDeleteI think Tink would benefit from having a few more friends she can talk to.
DeleteMy husband's favorite saying had been, It is what it is.
ReplyDeleteMy favorite saying has a few more curse words. lol
I haven't had to set an alarm in years because my dog gets me up at the buttcrack of dawn.
Yes, if I sleep in the cat starts getting on me to feed her.
DeleteWhen I turned 30, I had a sinking feeling because marriage was not on the cards. It is a terrible thing to shake, but we just get used to it and life goes on nevertheless
ReplyDeleteMarriage isn't a goal anyone should strive for anyway.
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