There is a third girl I meet on Seeking Arrangement (SA). I have not spoken about her up until now and when I tell you about her you will know why. Firefly, as I will call her, is a petite red head. She has a cute little figure that girls only have when they are young. Firefly has this childlike energy about her, that I feed upon. She reminds me so much of Billy, I think the Psychic had them confused, when she said, "I don't see her ever going away (perhaps she meant it metaphorically).
Firefly has the same bad habit as Billy. She is an addict. I saw the signs right away. "After you told me about your ex, I know I wasn't going to be able to hide it from you", she said to me early on.
I told here, "I've been down this road before. I am not getting sucked down it again."
"I understand." She replies, sheepishly but a mischievous grin never leaves her face. Sex with Firefly is fun and exciting. There is something about her I find very attractive. It is more than her superficial similarities to Billy.
We spent a lot of time together last month, she was struggling to get by and waiting for an opening in rehab facility. I don't understand my appeal to these young girls. It goes beyond the financial. I see it in the way they hang out with me. I see it in their reluctance to leave. I see it in Firefly, and I see it in Bunny. The mutually beneficial nature of the relationship keeps things easier to understand. I don't want to fall in love. I just want someone to have fun with.
"If you don't get in soon, I am cutting you off," I told Firefly. She waited over a week for an opening. Then on a Sunday, unexpectedly, she got the call from the rehab facility and she was gone. I expected to get a text from Firefly telling me she bailed from the place a day or two later but it never came. Quitting opiods is not easy. You have to want it.
Yesterday she reappeared. It has been ten days. She looks healthier. She is transferring from the short term facility and into a long term program. She will only be out for a week. The long term program will last anywhere from thirty days to a year. It is something I wish Billy would have done. Firefly is only twenty. She does not have that hollow look to her face that comes from years of drug use. That look was taking over Billy's pretty face..
"Take your time. There is nothing going on out here," I say, waving my hand about indicating this virus plagued world. She gives me a hug before leaving through the garage. "I am proud of you," I tell her as she retreats into the night.