Psychic Reading- Part II

What I find interesting about the Psychic is that fact, despite there being many ways to describe a person, she always nails them. She is never ambiguous. We will see that when she describes Firefly in this post and Max in an upcoming post.

"I have a friend, Firefly, whom we have talked about here in the past. She doing well. She has a lot on her plate. She is pregnant. She is going to be having a baby in August. Is she going to keep it all together?"

"Yes, but I think she is worried. "I wanna say like, she's worried she's stressed. She and the baby will be okay. I think she's worried about money. She needs to take things day by day and everything is going to work out. It's just-- okay, I got a feeling there’s a new guy in her life. I don't know if you want to tell her this, but I don't feel like these two are going to stay together."

"I won’t tell her that," I assure her.

"You know and I really feel that-- I don't know, I hope I’m wrong- but I don't… I just feel like she wants to be in love. She wants to have a marriage and a family. That's very important to her.  She would do anything and sacrifice anything just to have that.

This is an accurate way to describe Firefly.

I feel like sometimes-- I want to say he's all in it, you know, being there together. Then there are times I could see him--let's say going out and let's say spending money, coming home, and then she's thinking we needed that money to pay bills. So I feel like there's going to be a money issue here. You know she's looking forward, like I said, to the baby and being together and everything else but I just feel like as time goes on, I just feel him drifting a little bit more away."

"She's still going to try to hang on and then each time, I know when something doesn't go right, I think she's gonna talk to you more."

 "I don’t mind. I like checking in on her. She is one of my projects," I tell her.

"Yeah, yeah, yeah, that's true it's a project. Just to see how she's doing. She's very strong, very protective over that baby. Great mother! You know, wonderful mother, but I think he gets absent-minded. I think he's really trying to work hard. I feel like both of them grew up in difficult families so that's why I think the two are put together.  She just needs to talk to him sometimes 'cause sometimes I think she doesn’t want to say anything. So, she needs to say things like we need to work on this together. Don't let it go too far to when they start arguing.  Just let her know that when the time is right she needs to sit down and say, let's talk. Because if not, people start getting irritated and resentful.  Then it gets out of hand, but by doing that they can make this work. Definitely, she is going to have another baby. Yep, there's gonna be another one."

 "Let’s hope she takes her time," I reply.

Psychic Reading- Part I

Friday, I went to see the Psychic. The good one. There is so much to unpack from the session it will take several posts. She emails you an audio copy of the session. I have transcribed the recording. It is eight pages long. I uttered approximately one word for every hundred she said during the reading. The reading is like a fluid stream of thoughts. You have to experience it to understand. 

The Psychic sat across from me at her kitchen table. She doodles on notepaper with a pen as she speaks. Sometimes it is just X's she draws. Other times a name or some other symbol will appear. She went through three sheets of paper during my reading.

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"Now, let me hear you say your first name," She begins.

"Bathwater."

"Like I said, you stop me if you need to. You like-- I wanna say helping people. I wanna say, you attract people. You are good at guiding people. You know, leading people in the right direction, and I wanna say you are a part-time counselor. That's what I want to say here. I wanna say you've been that way your entire life. Going way back like, let's say when you're in school, I want to say you kept it to yourself. Like kids at school, let's say they were picked on and things like that, I think you would talk to them. You know what I mean? Like when everybody else or most people wouldn't, it was you."

"Now you are better because, in the past, you really want to be a perfectionist in things that you do. You know, like you're working on something, everything's got to fit. I feel like that's how your mind works. Let's say something is broken. If you can pick it up, you're holding it, and you figure it out in your mind. So I wanna say you are good working with your hands, but you've always been that way, and it's just I wanna say it's like a gift you got. It's a skill, and now when I say you're better at this than in the past. I think there was a part of you. I don't want to say worried about what other people thought, but I wanna say more insecure, and then I wanna say that's more connected to school, but you're very different than when you were in school. I wanna say this-- you are more accomplished in your life than I think you thought you would be because when you say, I am going to do this or that you do that."

"I feel like there's gonna be a short trip this summer. I do see that. I feel like it is going to be near water. When I say short, it reminds me of just getting away to get away. You are planning this with a female, and okay, now when I say this like the two of you, I don't feel it's scheduled yet. When I say a place, I think that she might have more-- okay, you know, like I think there's something about her that like something to do with paperwork, you know something isn't completed with this female."

"Is this a new female, or is it someone I am dating?"

"Someone that you are currently dating. No, let me stop you there and say this. I am going to put that trip off to the side for a moment. And, when said like, someone currently dating, okay, how would I say this? I don't know. Sometimes, I feel like she might be unpredictable."

Without me mentioning her name or describing Ava at all, unpredictable is the Psychic's word to describe Ava.

"You know, so when I said, Oh yeah, the trip, I paused because I don't know, honestly don't feel it's gonna be her because like let's say planning something and then let's say if you're getting near wherever you are going, she might actually back out. So, when I say that like being unpredictable, I feel like you know how she is by now. And you will be like, I knew it. You can just tell."

This next part is a bit convoluted, but I am leaving it in because of some critical points.

"I got a feeling that I'm trying to say-- like somebody from her past is talking to her, or something like that. It reminds me of like talking to somebody. I am trying to be specific when I say that because I don't feel like she spoke with this person a lot lately, but I feel like her talking to this somebody. It's not like she wants to get into a relationship with somebody else. It's nothing like that. It's she feels like she's stuck, you know? Like I'm not going anywhere. So when I say I see you're like going out more, be careful because I think there will be miscommunication between the two of you. I think it might be her, but she's not leaving your life."

"And by the way, I wanna say this one. IF EVER, like let's say she says I don't want to be with you anymore, she will be back. But with you, honestly, how I feel it will play out down the road is that you're going to meet somebody new. Just talking and getting to know somebody--going out a little bit here and there, and then I see you having more feelings for this new girl, Then this one that's around you will feel guilty about. Like I am talking to her, but I like this new girl. I got the feeling you will eventually cut the cord with the one that is currently with you. I just feel like there's such a history with the two of you. You've known her for quite a while."

I tell her, "I can expound if you like."

"Okay, yes."

"I have been hanging out with a girl named Ava. It's been very casual, but she is hitching her horse to someone else, but she doesn't want to break things off with me either. So, there is that complication which I'm fine with, but her availability is questionable, which leads to what you are saying. So I don't know if this is a short-term infatuation with her like you are saying, but we do have a good time when we go on trips. We went on two trips last month," I tell the Psychic.

"Okay, this has happened since the last trip. How would I say this? I wanna say she is little unstable. And see-- I got a feeling-- you know more what's going on, and I don't feel like that other guy really does. What I am going to say will sound ridiculous. I don't feel she's really into this guy."

"Normally, I would think, yeah, you know she will be with him, but I don't feel like it, and he's controlling. So when I say she needs to watch it a little bit because he will check on her, like drive by where she is at. God forbid he sends her a text, and she doesn't answer. Text, call, text, call that is what's going to happen, but that is what chases her away, but I don't see him going away soon. So you figure we are in May, I think they've been having some issues going on. Turning this guy a little bit. But, he came into her life (fast). Like he just jumped into a relationship with her."

"Right!" I agreed.

"You know, and it's like, I think she just doesn't like the closed in feeling. And by the way, speaking about closed in feeling, she is the type of person that someone comes into her life and, let's say they're starting to smother her, she's never stuck around. She can't do it, and I believe she said that this guy quite a few times, you know, like back off, back off, and he don't get it."

Ava has said precisely the same thing. She has only ever had a series of short-term relationships, and she has already tried breaking up with this guy.

"Okay, she will be with you, and I've got a feeling he's going to try to contact her, but  I can tell then she gets angry about it, you know, but he doesn't listen. So they will have their own drama. I do not see her breaking it off anytime soon. I just think sometimes she's going to be thinking, 'Well, maybe it's going to stop being like this.' But that it's not going to happen. Now he's gonna talk to her about going on a trip. So, I see him taking her on a trip, and then you're going on another trip with her, so that's going to be before August. No, before September, that's right, it's gonna be this short trip, it's gonna be near water."

At this point, she switches gear and starts talking about two different women I will be meeting and a place I will begin frequenting. I am leaving that for another post. The Psychics just goes with what she sees, and it isn't always linear. Though she did mention the trips twice.

Later on, she continued.

"The one around you now, she's still going to be around. You know what, I really feel this one around you now, she's gonna get so frustrated because this other guy-- I wanna say if she says, 'I'm gonna go get my nails done.' He would say, 'I'll pay for it,' you know, and maybe say 'I'll come and get a pedicure done,' so he’d be there. So, what I think some times she will not tell him stuff. He does this overly much. That's why I don't feel a person really stays with him." 

Then later still.

"You know that female that you're going out with? She has an intuitive side because maybe she will say, 'Were you thinking about going on a trip?' and you'd be like, 'yeah.' I just feel like she can get in tune with her feelings with you. So I want to say that there is some connection between the two of you that keeps pulling you together. You know, and not pulling apart. She sees that sweet side of you. She laughs with you. She can be a kid at heart. So can you. And you know, when you think about it, you don't see people like that anymore, so it makes her happy. Also, I said the two of you will stay together, but anyone that is going to end it is going to be you.

"Okay, now, as I am going on, any questions?

"You nailed Ava to the T. 'She's with him not because of who he is but what he does for her. She's already tried breaking up with him once before, and he would not allow it," I tell her.

"I think he's gonna be trouble for her."

"I think she's going to have drama with this guy and I think sometimes she is going to talk to you about it. So I want to say be prepared because when she's doing this, I just feel she is going to frustrate you because it's almost like "do you care that you wanna be with me or now am I just your friend." Then you are being the guidance counselor again. I feel like she's going on a trip with him, and then I feel like some time by the 4th of July I think it's six weeks, you will be on a trip. It's like she goes on one trip and then goes on another. Like I said, back and forth, but not trying to compare the two of you, but I feel like you're the fun one.

 And like I said I think with this guy, for example, he'll say, 'you wanna new phone, here I'll get you a new phone,'' but sadly, I think he feels like he owns her."

Sometimes the Psychic will soften her words, but she never tells you what you want to hear. When Billie left, the Psychic flat out said she was not coming back. Another time I asked if she saw me dating anyone she said no. There are many ways to describe a person, but I have never seen her get someone I've asked about wrong.   I also asked about work, Firefly, and Max. She had more to say, but I will split those into different posts.

Photos

Tuesday 5-17-2022 

I picked up Ava at 7:30 pm, and we went to a local park with lovely landscaping so she could take new profile pictures for me. She managed to take a couple good shots. The camera and I are not friends.

Ava canceled her phone plan. She can only communicate over wifi which is absolutely crazy. Especially when you consider she has someone willing to pay for it. Ava only received half my text concerning the pallets.

After, I asked her if she wanted to return to the condo, and she agreed. "I'll have to shower first. I haven't shaved in a couple days." 

Ava was distracted by her phone, keeping up appearances with her boyfriend and fielding inquiries from her latest side hustle. I loaded the pallets into the back of the Gladiator while she showered. We met together in bed, where her distractions were temporarily forgotten.

We spooned together after. Ava continued her texting while I laid behind her stroking her breast. It isn't ideal, but for now, getting together is not something either of us wants to quit. We each have our own reasons. 

A Few Changes

On my first blog, I took the time to create several headers, and I would rotate them. I was creative back then. Blogging has always given me a sense of satisfaction. I have always struggled to stay anonymous while honestly writing about myself and my cast of characters. I didn't do an excellent job at anonymity this time because, for a while, I didn't care. 

A Few of My Old Header

Out of caution and consideration, I have tightened things up here. I know once you put something on the internet, it is always on the internet, but for now, I think it is enough to make it hard for people to connect with things will be enough.

Paddling

Sometimes I think all I'm ever doin' is
Tryin' to convince myself I'm alive
Sometimes I think all I'm ever doin' is
Tryin' to convince myself I'm climbing in the trees...Record Player, Daisy the Great and ARJ

This morning, I drove to work. I didn't realize I was more than a half-hour early until I pulled into the empty parking lot. To say I am distracted would be an understatement. I have been thinking about the future. The things I've read and seen paint a bleak picture. I've started reading The Menu: Life Without The Opposite Sex by Aaron Clarey. The beginning reinforces what I already know. I am hoping the end provides some appealing paths.

I have always felt stuck between generations. I was born the last year of the baby boomers, but I don't fit into that crowd in many ways. My friends like Jay, who does fit, don't seem to have a better direction, just more financial security while they sit around watching Netflix and checking the market.

This malaise has been an undercurrent of many posts lately. Today I am left finding it hard to move forward because I don't have a direction. I am in the boat I've created, paddling against the stream. I don't have the strength to paddle forward or the courage to turn and navigate the rapids behind me. Today a reason to give up my efforts and allow the boat to hit the rocks is appealing.

Airport

Friday, I checked Sam's flight arrival status before leaving for the airport. Her plane was scheduled to land at 10:20 pm. By the time I made it to the arrivals area, it had been delayed fifty minutes. The Detroit Metro airport arrival zone was busy. I guess it is not unusual for a Friday night. I left the airport and parked at a gas station not far away.

I made my way back to pick up Sam at the new arrival time. She arrived safely, and we headed home. Sam drove from Detroit to St. Paul with her stepson. She drove his car, and he drove a U-haul truck.  He is staying in St. Paul for two months as a summer intern. Sam was exhausted from the trip.  She regaled me with stories from the trip, including a torrential storm and the stepson's girlfriend's support bird. It was a hilarious tale, but I could not begin to do it justice here.

Saturday, the twins came over and spent the night. It was the first time both spent the night simultaneously in a long while. We took a walk through the nearby neighborhoods, and I made dinner.  It was a good visit.

Sunday, while I was driving the twins to their mom's house. I saw pallets being offered for free along the road. I texted Ava.  She has this strange idea that she can use pallets to create a seating area in the backyard of the new boyfriend's house. When she told me of her plans, I asked, "Is he handy?"

"He's Jewish. He'd rather pay someone else to do things," Ava replied.

Bathwater: I saw a couple stacks of pallets when I was out driving this morning. Are you still looking for some?

Ava: If they look good, yes. Just 9 max, but even 2-4 is a good start.

Bathwater: If I pick them up, I don't want to get stuck with them. 

Ava: No, you won't get stuck with them.

I picked up four and set them in the garage for Ava. I am not sure how she plans on getting them to the house.

Later I washed the truck, but it turned out to be a useless endeavor. Sam called me later and wanted to get something to eat. We picked a restaurant on Lake St. Clair. It started raining while we were eating, and it rained again Monday morning on the way to work.

So far, the dating apps are devoid of any exciting prospects. So far, I've only chatted with a scam artist, a depressed mother of three, and two sixty-year-old women whose interests are tennis and golf.

If Ava decides it isn't worth trying to maintain a connection, I fear it will be a dry Summer for me, but perhaps I am just being pessimistic. Ava and I are supposed to get together Tuesday, but I haven't pestered her about it. I'm sure she will reach out one way or the other, and then there are also these pallets.

Losing

 I have been losing too much weight lately. I have been tracking my weight on my phone since April of 2018. Wednesday marked an all-time low. I lost sixteen pounds the summer I was going through my break-up with Billie. I am six pounds lighter than that now. At this point, I think everyone would say I have lost too much. Still, I'd rather be too skinny than too large.

I don't think it is health-related. It may be stress or depression-related, but those tend to be temporary. I have changed my diet. I've added more fruits and vegetables into my lunches. That is the influence Ava has left on me.

It was a mild 71 degrees outside Wednesday. I took a walk outside at lunchtime. When Billie and I were together, she would be too tired from a long day of work to go outsides, which seemed okay. These last few years, it's felt like every day I spend inside during the summer, I am missing out on something.

I need to make plans for the weekend. Tink and family will be in DC. Sam is helping her stepson move to Wisconsin for a summer internship this week, but I pick her up from the airport Friday night. Maybe she will go biking, or I can get the twins out for a walk. I see my friend Jay and his wife Friday for dinner, but he usually has plans for the weekend. He likes to play golf. I never took to the sport. I never had the patience or desire to improve past my limited ability.

I have put myself out on dating apps, Tinder, Bumble, and SA. It was something I did instinctively before Ava made her announcement, but those usually take a month or two before they pan out if at all. Ava has promised to help me update my photos which will probably help. I don't usually put much effort into photos, and she is a perfectionist. 

I booked another reading with the psychic for next week. I know most of you don't believe in psychics, but this one has always been insightful and it is a fun distraction. I still want to get to Hawaii. If I get that chance, I am going to take it.