I wished Billy a happy birthday today. She told me she’s thriving and sent a couple of pictures of her daughter—she’s adorable. I told Billie that motherhood was always where she belonged. She agreed, saying it’s given her a whole new perspective.
She also said she thinks of me often. I can say the same. We bonded through trauma, but these days our connection feels less about what we endured and more about acknowledging that we survived.
Since my divorce, I haven’t had many meaningful relationships. That’s why it matters when someone like Billy remembers me as a positive part of her story. Even with Tinkerbell, for all the chaos, there’s still a mutual respect and acknowledgment.
Gia was different. With her, I did everything right—or as right as I knew how—and still didn’t get the ending I wanted. She walked away and erased the relationship completely.
The irony is that Gia probably would have stayed longer in a messy, chaotic relationship. But I’m not built that way anymore.
And that's okay.
Now you have room for someone who won't need the drama.
ReplyDeleteI have room, but little desire to find anyone.
DeleteIt's good that you have a good relationship with some of them. If Gia was looking for messy, drama filled times then maybe it's better that you aren't together anymore and can find someone who will need what you need now.
ReplyDeleteHonestly, I don't know what Gia was looking for. I don't think she knows herself.
DeleteI hope you've healed and find someone who doesn't need too much healing herself :)
ReplyDeleteCheers,
CRD
Do drop by mine.
It would be nice, but I don't see it on the horizon.
Delete"Being not builit like that any more "is a credit to You Sir
ReplyDeleteOr it could be credited to my age.
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